A conscience clearing thing!

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

I'm sure that during the "Donna" years I must have saved 25-30 different poems, some about love and some about life, but this is one of my favourites.

I remember writing poems in those days, even though I'm not sure why. The love poems seemed to be my way to stay close to Donna even though I didn't see her much. While the "other" poems were more just ramblings than a poem about something specific.

Sometimes I wonder where I'm going when I start these things, and this one doesn't seem to be going anywhere so I'll make a statment that none of my EXgirlfriends will ever read(and I'm leaving out less important girlfriends that I don't feel I need to say sorry to).

I'm sorry for what happened, I hold no ill will and I hope you don't either.

Now to 4 specific people

Jennifer R .... Sorry, posting the "girl next door" picture and article was a little bit much I agree, but DAMN you had an attitude problem. Sure you were good looking, I got more than a few people giving me high fives when you and I went to Kellingtons, but ordering me to "change the radio station, I don't like what you're listening too" in my own car was going TOO FAR. That's why I posted the picture, strange that I was the one that got you IN the paper. I hope you learned a little about humility.

Christie A.G. ....I think I finally figured out why we broke up, I missed your birthday, Whoops! It was either that or you screwed around and tried to make me feel guilty. I was completely into the relationship, but was told afterwards that my friends didn't really like you too much, so It all worked out well in the end anyways.

Donna.L.B .... HHmm, you were my first love, even though It was more of a long distance thing, and I can NEVER think ill of you. I'm very happy to see you with a few kids, you sssoooo looked forward to having some. I loved the long talks we had, spending hours on the phone hearing each other breath, and talking about our dreams always left me smiling. Neither of us seemed to go the distance though, it seemed we were both content with "love from afar". I really think we connected more as friends that loved each other, but in the end that wasn't a bad thing.
Thanks for ALL of the talks, I never had a hard time hanging up on anyone but you .... "are you still there?", "no you hang up first", "are you still there?"

Oh kids:-)

Allison B .... You were the love of my life and my best friend and I regret everyday not telling you how I felt in Cancun. I don't think I'll ever be over you. Everytime we held hands I felt like the world could end and I'd be happy because you were at my side. You inspired confidence in the way you touched me, and everytime you smiled at me my heart skipped a beat. I could talk to you about anything, silly or serious, and you'd know what to say.

I can't hope for forgivness in this world, but when we meet in the next world maybe we can go and see a Steven Segal movie for old times sake!

Let's just hope his movies are better than they are here:-)



SSooo folks I guess this was a conscience clearing event for me, nothing too interesting for other people, but makes me feel a little better.

Later
Brent